Sunday, May 30, 2010

Another Passing

It is with a heavy heart that I share the news that my Grandma Ardy passed away early this morning. Just two weeks ago we buried my Grandma Merna and that same day me Grandma Ardy was hospitalized for heart failure and pneumonia. Later that week my Grandma fell and she was not recovering well. The other day my Grandma asked my mom to call my Grandpa and tell him that she wouldn't be home, my Grandpa passed away when I was just four months old. I was so saddened by her deterioration. It is hard to have lost two Grandmas in two weeks, but they are both in a much better place. When I told Eli this morning, his reaction was much different than it was with Grandma Merna's passing. This week he went to the care facility that my Grandma Merna lived in for a Memorial Service there and he realized that he wouldn't see her again. Today when I told him about Grandma Ardy he said "but I don't want to not see her". It is such a hard concept to explain. I am thankful that in time he will understand, and I hope that he can keep his memories of my Grandma's with him. I am thankful that the Lord has taken her home, but still saddened by our loss. I am thankful that she is at home with her husband and God and is no longer confused, but I am sad that my boys won't know her better. I will miss my Grandma, but I am thankful that the Lord has her by his side.

Thursday, May 13, 2010

A Passing

It is with a heavy heart that I share the news that my Grandma passed away today. She has been ill for a long time and we have heard countless times "this might be the end" and she has suffered needlessly for months. Thankfully she is now with Our Lord in Heaven. I always call my mom (who watches the boys) after the preschoolers leave for the day. After hearing the news today, I went home just to give my mom a hug and to get a hug from my boys. When I sat down and was cuddling with Ian, Eli came up to me and told me that Grandma Merna died. I had tears in my eyes and said "Yes, she is in Heaven now." Eli asked me why I was sad and I told him that I would miss Grandma. He gave me a hug and said "Don't be sad Mommy. I'm not sad 'cuz she's not my mommy" and proceeded to give me a great big hug. His hugs are so full of love and it was just what I needed. I know that he doesn't understand the whole concept of this, because in his next sentence he asked if we were going to visit her in the hospital. I'm sure he will be sad when he realizes that she is gone and that it may be hard to explain, but I know that God gives us many blessings in small bodies and in big bodies, weak bodies and strong bodies and I trust that the Lord has my Grandma comfortably by his side. I love you Grandma Merna!